Sunday Check-In

Another Sunday not in church ...  *sigh*. I have such emotional conflict when it comes to church. Part of me knows I need to be in church, and misses the deep fellowship that I had at the conservative Baptist church. The other part of me avoids the question because I so badly dread the "church-hunting" cycle ... poring over websites and statements of faith, creeping shyly into the back of the sanctuary and trying to avoid as many of the "who are you and why are you here?" questions as possible, squirming uncomfortably through blistering rock music and sermons that are either wimpy and watered-down or doctrinally weird, painting on overly perky smiles while meeting well-meaning old people during the after-service and telling my life's story a hundred times, and slipping back out as soon as possible to collapse gratefully in Dad's truck.  *Sigh*.  I know that's a very limited and self-pitying way to view it, but it's the truth. Finding a church is difficult. Much as I've tried to redefine myself after leaving the conservative Baptist church, if there were a way for me to start going there again regularly, I probably would, just because it seems to have spoiled me for everywhere else.  :-P

Anyway, I slept waaaaaay in this morning, due to suffering through watching Star Wars II: Attack of the Clones with John and Heather until 3AM; I came downstairs just before noon, and spent a relaxing "morning" with my sibs while my parents ran errands. The afternoon kind of disappeared between reading a blog and staring dully at browsing Pinterest ... I used a burst of energy to clean the bedroom while singing Fernando Ortega songs at the top of my lungs; and tonight I'm going to repot some cacti.  :-)

Tonight is also one of my favorite nights of the week - 60's spy show night on MeTV! My favorites are "Get Smart" and "The Man from U.N.C.L.E.", but I also love "Columbo" and am trying to get into "Mission: Impossible". Do you have a MeTV station in your area? Do you have a favorite weekly show that you look forward to?

I've had an EXTREMELY busy first month at my full-time job! My current position is basically an assistant to the director, which means that I deal with handling scheduling and cancellations, taking notes at meetings, meeting short deadlines, and helping undergraduate students (who were my equals just a short month ago) coming to me with questions and needs. Quite an adjustment from my peaceful undergrad job making phone calls. Adjusting, I will admit, has been difficult. I've spent a lot of evenings slumped on the couch staring at a screen in utter braindead exhaustion.

I'm optimistic, though, that things will be getting better starting this week. For one thing, I've been sketching out my decorating ideas for my very own cubicle:

Here are a few of my color and decorating inspirations ... you can see more on my Office Decor board on my Pinterest page:

1. Bunting!! | 2. Color palette | 3. Poster to go behind my computer monitor

John Wayne mousepad. Oh, yes.

It's been so much fun to make and buy things for my very own little space! Tonight I will be transplanting my little cacti from their individual pots into a pretty bowl I bought for them, and adding the little bunting ... tomorrow I'm going to order my nature poster to go behind my computer monitor and give me something restful to look at and some Bible verse cards to put up above and give me encouragement if I'm feeling overwhelmed or impatient. I'd also like to hunt up some fabric flowers to put in an old pop bottle that John gave me for just such a purpose.

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It's later now; John and Heather and I are eating snacks, doing crafts, writing emails, and watching The Magnificent Seven. (It's MUCH better than Star Wars II.)

I've been taking some pictures as I made the little bunting to go with my cacti, which I also repotted before starting the movie, so I'll post those in my check-in tomorrow!  :-)  Have a wonderful evening, my sisters!

Hugs and love,
Vicki