Every so often, that happens to me ... I feel like I can't stand one more day of plastic smiles, hairspray, and predictable calm before I break loose. Millions of people today, in this very moment, are feeling anguish, horror, exhilaration, terror, grief, agony, joy, ridiculous outpourings of laughter ... while I serenely patter through my day, from placid job to quiet class to peaceful meal to utterly predictable night of homework and Internet surfing. No ruffled feathers, no emotions stronger than mild annoyance or a flicker of a smile.
Sometimes I feel like I'm going to run away and grab a plane to Bangladesh ... or grab a random stranger in a hug just to see what happens ... or scale the campus bell tower and see if I get hurt ... or sink all my life's savings in a little sailboat and sail across the Atlantic to Ireland ... or walk through a dark alley at night just to see what happens.
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Then I usually feel like I'll just go to bed instead.
And dream about doing something crazy.
Goodnight, all.
Hugs,
Vicki
YES to all of this.
ReplyDeleteoh, some days I am utterly and absolutely ready to do just about anything...and then I usually manage not to...but sometimes I think I should have. There is so much more to the world...sometimes it drives me insane that some people don't see it...or then I think I am insane for seeing it and then not doing something other than I'm doing...one's mind is an interesting thing. :)
ReplyDeleteYes! Sometimes I feel like just doing something crazy! Something to break out of my daily routine and shake things up a bit, but then the Lord reminds me that I'm where He wants me right now, so I just chill out and do something in the "norm." Maybe one day I'll get to do one of the things I'd like to ;)
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